Contemplation

If you dig around a bit, you will find that the word "contemplation" comes from some old language and meant "to mark out a space for observation." Contemplation is used primarily in the spiritual sense - as I have commonly used it - and I think now is a good time to "mark out a space" for some observations. I think this week on the calendar is prime real estate for all that goes with observing...looking to and fro, back through history and forward into the future (it is the end of one decade and the beginning of a new one).

Personally, I just celebrated 20 years of total sobriety and a month after that date falls my b'day. This week is in between the two and really becomes a time of contemplation for me. I am realizing how I am not achieving what I wanted or being who I am. It is a tough place to be for me. The good thing is I have the power to change it. I don't use this time to beat myself up but to decide on how I will live differently.

I hope you make the space to look at your life and then choose how you will achieve what you want and be who you are. Let me know how that works for you.

Busy?

It seems like the standard answer that I and most others give and get these days is "Busy." Oh yeah, the question is "How are you?" It seems to me that there needs a better answer. I think "busy" is how I avoid the question. Better yet, just look busy and people won't ask and I don't have to be concerned about not telling the truth, being honest about how I am really doing.

The holidays offer even more of an opportunity to be "busy." Maybe this is the time of year we should be less busy and more honest. Come to think of it, maybe we should be less busy and more honest year-round...it may lead to real relationships.

Well, while there still time left in this year and holiday stuff and work stuff and, you know, I got to run.....I'm busy.............

I don't get it

There is soooo much more that I don't get than I do get.....

I don't get why people are so quick to tell you how to run things their way but so unwilling to do something, anything.

I don't get double speak....saying you'll do one thing while doing another.

I don't get the lack of taking responsibility for choices made.

I don't get why I don't get so much.....

Holidays?

I have to admit that I am not a big fan of the "holiday season." I'm not into parties, gift giving, trying to get along with others, or just being....well, you get the picture.

I know there is something to be said for ritual, tradition, and looking forward in hope. I think what I don't like about these holiday gatherings is we spend too much time looking back and not enough in the present or looking forward. The past isn't always a bad thing, it's...just...I don't remember much of the past.....so, I like to look forward with hope for a better tomorrow.

Time to Recommit

I've let this go for too long.....

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CVAB celebrated 14 years of being an organization while having our members meeting at the Hilton. We committed to Extending Our REACH...Recovery, Empowerment, Advocacy, Community and Hope. It was a wonderful evening.