Monday, January 11, 2010
Where's that New Year Smell?
Is it just me or does it seem that 2010 has already lost its new year smell? I haven't even got used to writing the date correctly and the newness seems to be fading. I'm sure that something will break any minute to remind me that the year has just begun, but for the moment I'm dealing with New Year's remorse....
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Hi, Happy New Year. I did not make any new year promise, so I dont have to worry about breaking any promises. I think remorse code words stink. Thats being to hard on ones self, that they dont have to worry about. Let everyone else worry about themselves. Let all break free and breathe about a healthy life. Smell the roses. Soon spring will be just around the corner. Have a happy day.
ReplyDeleteJust playing around with the idea of "buyer's remorse" and new car smells that tend to go away...eventually. I agree with you that Spring will soon come. I just hope to have the date thing right by then....
ReplyDeleteAs we get older, time seems to fly by so much more quickly.That concept may have something to do with the fact that the Bible says "...one day is with the Lord as a thousand years and a thousand years is as a day." [2 Peter 3:8]
ReplyDeleteAs I am approaching 60 years of breathing air in this world, I have to ask myself whether I will be able to look back from my death bed [Which I feel is where I will be in the blink of an eye] and say about the previous few decades "That was time well spent."
At present, I don't feel that I have accomplished much. The first few decades of my life was time spent in dysthymic depression, reaching a point of constant depression at about age 30 with constant thoughts of wanting to die, wishing I had never been born, afraid to kill myself, tormented with feeling demon possessed.
At almost age 30 I started going to AA meetings and returned to seeking help with a psychologist. It has been a very slow process. I still go to AA and other supports groups, I still see a Mental Health professional [Have gone through several in the past thirty years--I thought I was well a few times, other times I have changed therapists for a variety of reasons.]
During the past year I have gained a great deal of strength and growth from hanging out with the CVAB community and staff. Although I sometimes ask myself, "Why am I still so sick? Why am I still so uncomfortable in so many situations? Why do I still say things I end up having to apologize for?"
Sooner or later, either I come to a conclusion myself, or someone will point it out to me: I am very comfortable in a lot of situations [I was never OK thirty years ago], I rarely think about suicide, and I practically never think about homicide. When those thoughts do come, I quickly "Think, think, think!" [When I think about any insane thought], I THINK about where I was the first thirty years of my life [Constant dysthymia, depression, and mental torment], then I THINK about the progress I have made during the past thirty years [gradually widening my comfort zone], then I THINK about what I have been doing to make the progress I have made, and I move in that direction.
And a few things I keep coming back to are these:
........Progress not perfection
........We come to see or difficulties not as problems but as stepping stones to recovery!!
,,,,,,,,God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
After analyzing things this way, I am hopeful that the next thirty years will indeed provide many opportunities for continued growth [Once I reach perfection I will be ready for the next life, IE, ready to die.] and, many opportunities to share my experience, strength, and hope with others.
Looking forward to 60! [Not this year, but next year.]
kae
I was introduced to to the Serenity prayer through mental health. It has helped me alot. The serenity prayer will always be there to help a person relie on dealing with life. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Carolyn
ReplyDeleteto Brad director of CVAB. Did you go to the recent car show. There was alot of new good smells. I have been a few time to the care show. I have yet to buy a new car. A bran new car might be the best to buy. The new car will have a new smell and no cigar holes in the seats and flooring. You might not want to buy a used car. You might end up with someone elses headaches. Have a nice day and good luck with car remose.
ReplyDeleteI have a question about cvab membership but I don't know where to put it so here it is.
ReplyDeleteSince the member banquette last December I have heard some questions around CVAB about what does it take to become a member.
Some have said that you have to go to CVAB 101 class, some have said you need to be a volunteer, one person, I'm sure has said that you have to take a computer class.
What I thought I heard a long time ago was that membership only requires the initial orientation, and at that time there is a signing of a statement if you want to be a member.
It would be nice if some staff would clarify for us here and/or perhaps in the "Voice". I did notice that the Voice makes mention of the Membership Advisory Counsel meeting,[MAC] but I do not recall seeing mention of what it actually is to be considered a member. That information would be appreciated please. Thank you
I am thinkful for CVAB. It has helped me alot. I am thankful I am able to be a greeter, sign people in and answer the phone. I like meeting the new people that come in to CVAB. CVAB membership is easy to join. Let some of the staff hear from you. Life is good at CVAB. It is a happy day at CVAB. A person can learn alot of different values by being at CVAB. Its how we join in and take part in our own recovery. I finally figured out I had to take care of my own recovery plan and my own treatment plan. CVAB is also about respect, responsability, and respect. CVAB is also about helping other people. Hope you will join us. A person has to take new volunteer orientation. Please call for times and dates.
ReplyDeleteThanks for everyone being you. Carolyn greeter at CVAB. Carolyn